all though i have said that i could stay until the end of the year. my boss told me not to prolong the agony and leave as soon as possible. i guess she also agrees with me that my motivation is already low. and i somehow got the feeling that she rejoiced at what i said... "hah! no more jerry to contend with."
while it hurts to be dropped just like that. it felt good to finally tell her what i have been keeping for so long. now, all i have to do is to finish up with the stuff that i need to do. i guess that won't be too hard anymore, even if it amounts to mountains of tasks.
i have given in to fate.